Okokz.. For now.. I'm trying to adjust my emotions back to normal.. Been rather down these few weeks.. I ADMIT OKIE..

Well people.. Just tolerate me for some more time.. I NEED TIME.. If I'm not giving myself a chance.. How can I expect people to give me too.. Zzz..

Sorry to those that I always scold.. Well.. You know who you all are.. By the way.. All i written on blog is just to vent my anger out.. After that onwards.. I ALREADY FORGOTTEN.. SO PLEASE.. Don't remind me of sad or angry things.. Make me VERY VERY PEK CEK DE OKIE..

I'm trying to be as optimistic as last time.. (Acting as one again of cause)
Been really sick and tired this few weeks too.. VOMIT AGAIN JUST NOW.. Vomit is like a habit to me like that.. It's the fact.. -.- MY STOMACH GOT PROBLEM LAHZ.. Need go X-RAY soon.. REAL SOON.. Sigh..

Okokz.. Stop here le..

LOVEmeTWICE 10:03 PM

Do I wake up so early today? NO!!! I haven't sleep.. =x

I'm having my Japanese written test on Monday.. And I haven't study.. Frankly speaking.. I'm not very good at it.. Same as others.. It's just that I know how to read better than them ONLY.. But what's important in exam is what you write.. So what I know is also useless.. Zzz..

I haven't start doing my Storyboard.. Or should I say my team mate start le.. I never even help them.. To them I may be a slacker.. But I'm not.. They find it hard approaching me izzit..? I find it hard talking to them.. Sometimes I talk to them.. They don't even bother about me.. What for I care so much about the project.. Even though I really want to help.. Cause I hate letting people do all the work.. But they seems to not thinking me as that kind of people..

They never put themselves in MY shoes when I always put mine on them.. Trying to know what are they thinking.. They might said I never.. But I DID and I compromise with them.. They just won't appreciate it.. What can I do.. To look more like a slacker to them..? Make them feels that I did nothing for the project..? Even though I've already tried..? Just like Digital Electronics Project.. I help and no one appreciate.. Do they know the feeling of being hurt..? No isn't it..? They are too fortunate living in this world.. Although good and bad things occur in different ways..

Oh my god.. Why am i always write my blog like this.. At first write until so happy.. Slowly right until so angry like that.. Zzz.. Must change my habit already..

I REALLY REALLY HOPE TO WRITE A HAPPY POST JUST ONCE.. Something that happen on a particular day okie.. Ever since I came poly nothing good happen.. GOD BLESS..

LOVEmeTWICE 6:27 AM

Am I having problem? Why everyone treat me until like this? Did I do anything wrong? Am i wierd? WHY!?

Even if I have attitude problem.. So what.. Is it fine for a chio bu to have attitude problem cause no one will blame her just because she's pretty but not me? That's what I seen on some people.. So pragmatic..

Well.. Today I nv go school.. Not because I'm sick.. And I don't intend to take MC.. I'm thinking of quitting school RIGHT NOW.. I'm getting sick of the people there.. Hypocrite.. YESH HYPOCRITE.. Unhappy with what I say? At least I don't say it in front of you people.. This is my blog.. I can write what I want here.. It's none of your business anyway..

Less than one week only.. You give me a 360 degrees changes.. Who can take it? Are you a man? I don't think you are.. I hope you won't get any girls you want in all your lifetime.. I curse you.. Curse you being rejected by girls all the time.. Who do you think you are now.. I'm not angry at all.. I DON'T BLAME ANYONE..

From the start.. You all don't understand me.. Why act as if you are? I don't assume of who you people character and attitude are.. You people shouldn't do this to me.. Assuming.. I HATE IT..

So what if I don't want say my problem out? So what if i said? Can you people help? NO! Cause from the start YOU PEOPLE KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME.. I'm all alone now.. I only give trouble to people.. That's why people dislike me.. And hates me.. Even though they don't admit.. This is not sensitive.. I've seen through this life.. It's just that I don't know how to express it out myself..

Seriously.. I'm tired.. Really tired.. I laughing outside but crying in my heart.. You people don't know at all.. Always treat me invisible.. It's no difference as a dead people.. Must I die then you people will be happy? Is that so? Or you people won't feel anything.. Cause in you people life.. There's no Sandy this person.. Just a illusion.. Some passer by..

I'm not threatening to use die to want any care and concern.. Cause I'm really really so tired of living.. I hate this school.. I hate this life.. I hate everything..

LOVEmeTWICE 6:10 PM

Lolx.. Nice title right.. My toenail was broken yesterday for no reasons.. T.T It's beem almost 10 years plus since it last broken.. =x

Anyway.. Finally not so stress as last week already.. Now I left HTML haven do.. Visual Basic has done.. But by Feng.. Need learn okie.. If not get 0 marks.. -.-

My HTML webby looks ugly to me.. Really.. No standard like that.. I only like my pictures inside..

Well.. Next Monday I'm having my japanese written test..! Then Friday data comm lab test.. And soon.. Common test for digital electronics coming soon.. Then MY EXAMS TOO!!! I scare my data comm will fail.. ONLI THAT OK.. Cause need to memorise.. I don't like.. T.T

My mood still not so good.. Don't know why.. Izzit PMS..? LOLX.. No wOr.. But feeling so tired lahz.. As pale as ghost.. Zzz.. Die earlier the better.. =D Kekez.. Stop here.. =x

LOVEmeTWICE 6:23 PM

男人都是一样的，说会等你，说到自己很痴情似的。全部都是骗人的！！！

最后还是喜欢别的人，爱上别的人。

不能等就不要说你会等到永远。

爱就是不轻言放弃，可是你做不到。

是你让我对爱改观，是你把我给骂醒的。

可是你已经不是我以前所认识的你了。

你为了我改了很多，我是知道的。

是不是因为我不接受你，也不跟你出门。

你就对我这么的冷淡，为什么要跟他一样呢？

做朋友对你们这些男生来说很辛苦吗？

难道要在一起才叫做幸福吗？

难道不接受你们我很过分吗？

对我来说， 爱是一生的承诺……

难道你们认为爱一个人就要和他在一起吗？

我不是一个拿得起放得下的人。

我不是一个会把我的爱全部付出给任何一个人……

生命就是这么地痛苦……

The one that I want him to give up.. He don't want..
I think I should be single forever..
Giving trouble to people..
Making people sad..
Sigh~

LOVEmeTWICE 8:55 PM

Being busy doing project lately.. Finally have a day to rest a LITTLE bit and post.. I doze off just now when playing maple.. I slept for 30 minutes or so.. Zzz..

Very tired okie.. Well.. I've finish my HTML already.. But still got rooms for improvement.. Creativity thinking going to finish too.. Left the board haven't do.. But then.. Haiz.. Forget it.. As for visual basics.. Feng has been doing it all by himself.. I really very awkward okie.. Wee neng said me just now.. Say I should help Feng.. He do everything himself he also cannot take it.. Haiz.. Not I don't want okie.. Is I really don't know how to do..

Next week going to have presentation and role play.. God bless me okie.. Getting so stressed up nowadays.. I know I know.. Not only me.. But I have other problems too.. Don't think that you understand me.. Cause you don't.. OKIE..?

Stop asking me what happen and stop bothering me.. If I want to say.. I will say.. Why I can't get back the same thing as what i do to my friends too..? Being too nice to them is not a good thing? Must I show attitude so that they will notice me and also start to leave me behind alone..? Oh ya.. Been like that before.. But who can I find..? My best friend are so busy with her boyfriend.. And what I can do is to keep everything to myself.. Until one day I cannot take it.. I just vent it all out and people will says that I'm giving them headache and trouble..

Ya.. I'm a nuisance.. I'm a burden to every single one.. And Jian Wen.. Stop tagging and say that you will be there for me.. I don't need it.. I've been mean to everyone.. Not only you..

PEOPLE.. PROVE TO ME THAT I'M WRONG.. I'm feeling so sux as days when by.. And my post is getting suckier day by day.. You think I very happy writing bad encounters or problems everyday on my blog..? CAUSE I DON'T VENT MY ANGER ON ANYONE.. OR POURING OUT MY SORROW TO ANYONE TOO.. IT'S GIVING TROUBLE TO YOU ALL ISN'T IT..? Reading a fcuking blog makes you feel piss off too isn't it..? If that so.. Stop reading my blog.. Delete my link.. JUST GO!!!

LOVEmeTWICE 10:23 PM

I'm doing my HTML now..!!! Do so long never even do finish one page.. So pathetic.. T.T Luckily feng help me do finish Visual Basic.. I'm so touch okie.. Well.. Gotta rush all my projects within this week.. If not I sure die.. God Bless Me.. Kekez.. Stop here today.. Gotta continue my HTML now..!!!

LOVEmeTWICE 11:50 PM

I've been living for 18 years..
I find that life is really meaningless to me..
I shouldn't be born into this world..
Why am I always meet all those bad things..
I don't wanna compare with other people for now..
You people just don't understand me..
Or should I say..
Don't give a damn on me at all..?
People act to be friends with me..
Being a hypocrite to talk to me..
I don't need it really..
You guys just get the hell out of me..
Tears keep rolling out from my eyes..
Even tears represent the sadness in my heart from you people..
I'm getting tired already..
Not a single one of you understand my feelings now..
Even if I'm leaving this world..
You people won't even care..
Won't attend my funeral..
Thinking that I die is a very good thing..
You people are evil..
I think leaving this world will be the best choice for me now..
Give me peace please..

LOVEmeTWICE 6:19 PM

I WANT A BABY..!!! Today saw many babies during working hours.. All so cute okie.. Feel like having one also.. =x

But.. I'm still single.. And to think I want a baby at a young age.. -.-
But babies are so pure and innocent.. Everyday eat and sleep only.. So good.. =/
I JUST LOVE THEIR EYES..!!! So cute okie..

I think.. I should go work at a child care centre better.. I don't mind taking care a bad boy.. Really.. I just want to play with kids.. T.T

Zzz.. Stop my crazy thoughts le.. =x

LOVEmeTWICE 11:51 PM

I WAN WATCH MOVIE..! My Death Note II I haven't watch okie.. T.T Not I don't want watch.. No time.. My Digital Electronics Project Presentation finish already.. Left HTML.. Japanese stage play..? (think so) Visual Basic.. and Creativity Thinking.. Graphics Design coming soon.. And so does the "test" of Digital Eletronics Project too.. I don't want to sabotage Pu Wei.. ='( I WANT STUDY HARD HARD..!!!

Well well.. Next week got test too.. Graphic Design and HTML de.. I haven't study okie.. Somemore still got work.. Next week also.. I DON'T WANT WORK.. Tomorrow I reach working place I will call Jolin.. I SWEAR.. I DON'T WANT WORK ON WEEKDAYS.. Weekend work 1 day can already..=/

New movie coming out soon.. Got one M18 movie wOr.. Feast.. I WANT WATCH..!!! Who to call wOr..? Haha.. Horror horror de.. =b Anyway.. Don't think have the time to watch too.. Zzz..

Just came back home.. Very tired.. *Go wash up le* =b

LOVEmeTWICE 11:38 PM

Today I missed my first lesson.. Not because I overslept.. It's because I set wrong alarm.. Zzz.. 745am set until 745PM.. In the end woke up at 9am.. Don't want go school already.. Zzz.. Then today my visual basic test can fail already.. don't even know how to do.. Need to ask my friend at the back..

Well.. I started to think that I always tend to regret the things that I've done.. Or should I said not done..? For I scare failure.. Think so..? And now I'm so confuse.. But I can't do anything about it.. I think.. I have to focus on my studies now baz.. Cause I think.. I'm going to flunk my modules very soon.. Haiz..

LOVEmeTWICE 10:49 PM

Don't comment about my title anymore.. I want to cry already.. Very stress.. Wanted to do my HTML.. In the end I went to sleep for awhile.. Wake up already 11 plus already.. No mood do already.. Haiz.. Forgot tomorrow got VB test.. SIGH~* T.T

LOVEmeTWICE 11:23 PM

This will be a interesting post just like the title had said.. Why I want to make it interesting..? That's because Wei Chao & Pik Feng had been commenting about my title being too boring.. See already also will sianz sianz de.. So I shall make this a very interesting post for them to see.. An interesting title with an interesting post and interesting topic.. Just to let them know that my post will be interesting as well as others.. If this interesting post make them put a smile on their face.. Means I have succeeded in making it sounds interesting.. So now I'm going to stop typing for this interesting post of mine.. Hope you find it interesting for now.. ^^






P.S Don't kill me.. =x

LOVEmeTWICE 10:25 PM

So tired today.. Didn't manage to get to bed early.. I'm so sad and angry now.. All different issues.. Haiz..

Anyway.. Today I go make spectacle.. 180 plus.. Actually wanted to make the one that cost 250 plus de.. Too expensive already.. T.T Bought 1 day disposable contact lenses too.. Cause the 2 weeks lenses that I wanted to buy no stock wOr.. EXPENSIVE LAHZ.. Heart pain pain.. My pay only 500 plus okie.. Really need to find someone to support me soon le.. =x *Kidding*

LOVEmeTWICE 10:39 PM

Today is a very meaningLESS day okie.. I was at the salon from 4 plus till 9 plus.. Don't know why today so many "maids" doing rebonding.. I was the last 2 customers of that day.. Cause too many "maids" rebonding.. Waste my time.. I only trim my hair and rebond!!! Haha.. This is the forth time I rebonded my hair.. Going to dye my hair soon.. Hur hur~ =x

LOVEmeTWICE 10:55 PM

Today don't know why so boring.. Actually wanna go hair salon to rebond or dye my hair de.. In the end woke up at 4 plus.. Don't feel like going anymore.. =/ I think I'm going tomorrow in the morning baz..

Today whole day at home playing maple.. Training my crossbowman with Gary.. Before that we were hunting at Vikings for illbis.. I only got one drop from the Vikings.. A level 50 thief top.. Zzz..

Hmmx.. Today mood not so good.. I also don't know why.. Feel like dying again.. -.-"
Now lying on bed using my laptop.. I think I'm going to lie until I'm going to sleep.. Lolx.. Kidding.. =x

I'm going for my dinner now.. Stop here.. ^^

LOVEmeTWICE 8:48 PM

Today is my brother's birthday okie.. He's 17 years old already.. So fast.. I as a sister of his.. Never bought a present for him.. Lolx.. I always bought one for him every year.. But he never seems to buy me one before.. So don't buy for him anymore.. =x

Well.. Today as usual.. I'm late for my lesson.. Sleep during lecture.. Luckily today no need present.. But it seems like from next week onwards.. The presentation will be much more harder.. Should I say I'm lucky or unlucky..? Zzz.. Oh well.. Today one lecture was postponed due to some reason..? And after our lunch break.. We have to spend the rest of the 3 hours rotting at the library watching movie.. Lolx.. At first we watched Scooby Doo.. But we still have 1 hour left.. So we watched another movie too.. Spirited Away if I'm not wrong..? I only know that it's a Japan's movie.. Lolx..

Well.. After I finish my lesson at 6pm.. I went to work straight after that.. I reached there at about 6:45pm.. So many people today okie.. Then got 3 customers very bad.. Our restaurant closed at 10pm.. We already let them ate for about 15 mins more.. Not only them.. And a few customers too.. Then I tell them that our restaurant close at 10pm.. They automatic went off and say sorry.. Then these 3 customers.. But I'm not wrong.. An Indonesia Chinese.. Eaten for around 1030pm.. I don't blame them eating slow.. But then they are chatting.. Wasting our time.. And before this.. This 3 customers gave us attitude.. As if they very rich like that.. Zzz..

Luckily I was there eating too at the counter there.. I bought soup from The Soup Spoon.. The Soup Spoon boy got work today okie.. I saw him at about 9 plus.. I thought he went home already.. Cause Sharlene said that he saw him at around 5 plus.. After that never saw him anymore.. Then when Sharlene and me was walking at The Soup Spoon thinking what to buy.. The waiter there was giggling at us.. Zzz.. I think they were laughing at our working attire.. But that Soup Spoon boy no laugh.. So kind of him.. Lolx..

Well well.. Next week I never work.. Jolin gave me 2 weeks break.. But I told her that I will work many days after my examination & projects.. Most probably give me one two days a week to work..? =x I wanna work on Saturday next week.. Cause got new girls coming to work.. I want see them.. Lolx.. If not they will think I'm a newbie in the restaurant.. Cause I won't be working so much for now.. =x

Kekez.. Stop for today.. Post too long already.. ^^

LOVEmeTWICE 11:42 PM

I'm so tired in school today.. But I thought I won't be sleeping in school.. In the end i cannot endure anymore.. End up sleeping during lecture.. Tomorrow will be another tiring day too.. Schooling from 9am-6pm.. After that have to go work.. Don't feel like working anymore.. So stress up.. Sigh~*

I still got a lot of projects haven't touch.. Really don't feel like studying anymore.. HOW!? Zzz.. I really need a break from everything for now.. I guess... ...

Too tired of living..? Maybe wOr.. Life so sucks..

Sigh~ My blog won't have happy things like that.. All seems so sad to me.. Someone out there~!!! Who can let me post happy thingy inside this bloggy..!? =x

Okie baz.. Stop for today.. Sigh~*

World Of Sadness

LOVEmeTWICE 10:00 PM

Sianz.. I thought I can blog everyday.. Thanks to Wei Chao.. I missed 3rd January.. Now have to blog at midnight 3 plus..

Sigh~ I cannot quit my job at Amanogawa.. Jolin don't let me quit.. But I really don't feel like working anymore.. =/

Anyway.. I saw the Soup Spoon Boy today~!!! Well.. I must admit.. He really is kawaii~~~ ^^ Thought I will have no chance to see him anymore.. Find some time I will go his restaurant and eat.. SO CUTE OK..!? Hur hur hur~ =x

Tomorrow school reopen.. Frankly speaking.. I really don't feel like going school anymore.. I want to quit.. Today saw Wei Lun on the bus.. He also says he feel like quitting.. Cause poly life really sucks.. Especially when u meet suck people there.. Your life will be like hell..

I miss my secondary school friends OKIE.. Although my secondary life not that good.. At least better than in poly..

Haiz.. Stop for today.. THIS IS 3RD JANUARY POST.. I DON'T CARE.. =x

World Of Sadness

LOVEmeTWICE 3:12 AM

Zzz.. I think I'm going to quit my job at Amanogawa soon.. Probably this Friday baz.. So unhappy working there.. Although I love the chefs there so much.. But the supervisor is way too bias already.. I don't mind her being bias.. But the way she do things.. I cannot tolerate baz.. She's old enough to think already.. But I think that she still think like a 3-years-old kid.. Fancy calling someone to learn cashier when that someone have to ask me how to do.. What for..? I know a little bit of cashier because Mei Lee teaches me.. But so what.. That stupid supervisor don't believe me.. As if I will steal the money..? She doesn't know the meaning of 'DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER.' Hope someday she will have retribution.. HOPE one day the money is gone when I've quited.. Then she will find someone to responsible for it.. I'm so evilllll..... Kidding.. =x FORGIVE & FORGET PLEASE~!!!

World Of Sadness

LOVEmeTWICE 11:17 PM

Luckily I manage to post my first entry at the year 2007 January 1st.. But this will be a short post baz.. I don't know what to write.. What I can say is.. Today is a bad day for me.. To think today is the first day of the new year.. Nevermind.. I will forget about it tomorrow~!!! ^^ Anyway.. I must really thanks Xiao Jun for helping to make this template for me.. So nice.. I really love it.. Okokz.. =b Thanks so much OKIE.. You have my love.. Lolx.. Kekez.. Stop here for now.. ^^

LOVEmeTWICE 11:43 PM

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