God always enlighten me when I'm down..

They believe in me and so must I do the same too..


Anyway..

Today was a tough day for darling..

Washing dishes at Ichiban Sushi..

I felt so heart broken for him.. >.<

He must be sleeping soundly now.. =)

Today I went to ah ma house..

To pray and visits my uncleS..

I saw my cute COUSINS!!!

Long time no see..

But they still love me as much as before.. XD

Growing more and more yandao OKIE..

The young one getting cuter and cuter by each day..

Cause he getting fatter and fatter!!!

WAHAHA!!!!!

Well..

3 people had committed suicide at my ah ma block..

My uncle said that 3 died and won't be anymore..

It's a cycle anyway..

Believe it or not..

If I want someone to die..

I can just simply tell that person to walk pass the particular spot..

And depends on fate whether that person should die anot baz..

Amazing isn't it???

Anyway..

On the way to home by bus..

I saw car accident..

Three cars at the junction of the road..

Crashing to each other..

But I hope no one died.. =D

Anyway..

Stop here.. XD

LOVEmeTWICE 1:21 AM

I'm tired of everything..

Should I just END it once and for ALL?

My heart ACHE..

Tears rolling down my cheeks..

I'M A CRY BABY..

SO WHAT..

You guys live happily in life but not every one like you all do..

Not everyone are the same..

Is that a problem to pour all my sorrows over here?

I loathe you all!!!

I loathe myself too!!!

I just want to END my life NOW..

LOVEmeTWICE 3:01 AM

I'm so useless..

I can't do anything..

Even something simple..

To cheer someone up..

Someone that is so important to me..

I failed..

Am I not up to that task?

Or I'm just nothing to say?

I wanted to say something to cheer him up just now..

But the way he treated me a bit weird..

He don't know..

Cause it's within his own self..

Hiding his true feelings inside and showing the fake ones..

What am I suppose to do?

Am I wrong with what I think?

It's so weird..

I can't sleep tonight..

I really got nothing to say..

I'm going to collapsed soon too..

I can't take it..

LOVEmeTWICE 3:13 AM

In an agony..

Troubling over some issues..

Tolerating..

Enduring..

Cooling down..

Sigh..

LOVEmeTWICE 2:36 AM

Jealousy causes the hatred in your heart..

It's applies to everyone..

Don't ever denied that you are not one of them..

LOVEmeTWICE 12:41 AM

I'm a sinner..

I've committed a big sin..

Sobx..

I hope God won't blame me.. =/

Cause it's not intentionally..

I didn't see it..

I just walk pass..

And I stepped on it..

I'VE KILLED THE POOR FLYING INSECT!!! T.T

I saw blood OKIE..

I didn't realise it until I went back to my room to put my laptop..

Seeing it lying on the floor dead..

I know it's kinda an idiot to think over this kind of thing..

But I really hate killing living things..

Sometimes would want to be a vegetarian.. -.-


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Anyway..

Xiao Jun wrote something to me in msn..

LOLX!!!

Here goes:

-missapple- theory
when it comes to insult,
i close my ears.
when it comes to remarks,
i put it in pockets,
and use it in the future.

Must learn from her.. XD

I miss all my secondary friends!!!

When you guys want outing???

Xiao Feng ar Xiao Feng~

Stop hanging out with Wen Xuan gang without me around again!!!

Always heard people CAUGHTING you guys outside watching movie!!!

Not only Xiao Feng wOr..

The rest also!!!

Stop studying and come out!!!

Wait till june anyway.. >.<

I've got a lot of work piling up one by one..

Almost everything due next week..

And I haven't even prepare anything..

GOD BLESS.. XD

LOVEmeTWICE 12:25 AM

This world don't owe me ANYTHING..

I owe them EVERYTHING..

Things are getting out of hands..

That's what everyone wants..

Right?

I knew you guys will be there laughing at me..

Looking at my blog and keep on laughing..

Counter is running and no one bother to tag me..

Cause they hate me to the core..

They hate me for writting things about them that makes them so unhappy..

So what if i'm gone?

No one cares.. .. ..

I almost forgotten that they are some people out there that is there for me..

People that I knew online..

My old buddy..

Won't ask me what happen and they will rush down for me..

They are just a friend..

They can do more than a boyfriend could do to me..

In the middle of the night..

They will still come down for me..

Without any complains..

Why.. .. ..

LOVEmeTWICE 11:21 PM

眼泪直流。。。
好累。。。 真的好累。。。
我已麻木了。。。
为何我爱的人都不了解我呢？
我感觉不到他的关怀。。。 他的体贴。。。
眼睛好肿好肿。。。 好红好红。。。
他一点都不懂女人的心。。。
难道当初我真的做错选择了吗？
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如果说分手时苦痛的起点，那在终点之前我愿意在爱一遍。
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我现在真的好烦好烦。。。
好辛苦好辛苦。。。

LOVEmeTWICE 12:35 AM

I'm so tired of everything now..

Keep repeating the same song..

最近 sang by 李圣杰..

Should I do the same too?

I'm really really tired already..

My eyes is very red and watery..

Swollen too..

My heart ache..

I can't take it anymore..

Everything comes from the bottom of my heart..

Everyone of you don't understand..

Living in this world is really really meaningless for me..

God is torturing me..

God don't want me to die..

God wants me to suffer.. .. ..

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Seriously..

I need to buy a new Penknife..

Mine had turn rusty..

And not sharp anymore.. .. ..

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

LOVEmeTWICE 10:48 PM

I've been sick for almost 3 weeks..

In school now..

Just now wanted to do my proposal for the web portal..

In the end I do nothing there..

Intend to do it at home later..

Now darling is teaching Xiao Zha Zha Digital Electronics..

Big problem for him..

Lolx..

He really not good at it.. XD

Quite hardworking lahz him..

*claps hand*

Tomorrow will be having that stupid COMMUNICATION SKILLS again..

Hate that teacher..

So wierd..

Tomorrow will be having Internet Programming Lab too..

Till 6pm..

It's a long day..

I rather have it on Friday night..

Cause I'm more energetic in the night than morning..

I'm a night owl what!!! >.<

Oh ya..

Last saturday I went to Fun Fair with Yoong, Charmaine & Kim..

Played Vortex and Sky Rider..

It's fun OKIE..

Want to play Vortex again!!!

Relax my mind and forget all unhappiness!!!

Hur hur~~~

LOVEmeTWICE 6:30 PM

Wow..

I think I've accumulate a LOT of golds in my mouth..

Silent means golden..

And if I were to voice it out..

It will be GOLDEN WORDS already isn't it?

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Well..

I should have listen to Eileen..

To voice it out..

But why I never?

Cause I'm afraid..

Yesh I am..

Don't I look like one?

Oh ya..

People look you by the looks not your INNER side of you..

Do I give my fcuking attitude to you all before?

I don't think so..

Or I should say NEVER..

You are thinking that I'm giving you one because SOME others thinks that way..

Is that call 人云亦云？朋友有福同享，有难同当？

I must EMPHASIS on something here..

This is a BLOG..

Some people write blog for fun..

Some write their happiness..

And some write their unhappiness..

It's something that some people use to let off their so call "STEAM"..

Just because they don't wanna voice it out..

They wanna people to have their ATTENTION on them..

I admit I'm one of them too..

But not to everyone..

Just particularly some people..

To have their UNDERSTANDING..

Everyone is not love by all and hate by all..

Some times I love to write 人生道理 in my blog..

Don't mean to emphasis my sentence to anyone..

Those who know me for YEARS should know what a person I am..

And if you are unhappy with what I wrote everyday in my blog..

You can don't visit my blog..

Only make you more angry isn't it?

My previous blog is almost the same as the blog I have now..

Pouring all my problems out..

And some times my happy moments..

But people won't comment about me..

WHY?

I only give my blog to those that I think that they are worth a friend..

And not some one disliking me for the things I wrote in the blog..

If you aren't one..

I suggest you can stop viewing my blog anymore..

No fate to be my 知心朋友。

And to the puerile some ONE..

Stop backstabbing others and look as if nothing happen..

You are someone that I look down on..

And to ALL..

Please understand EVERY words that I wrote here before comments about me..

I never reprimand anyone..

Nor FIRM with what I said here..

If you don't..

I suggest you go make a SPECTACLE.. =)

LOVEmeTWICE 11:11 PM

Having DSA in the lab now..

In a very low mood..

Somehow i think that they wanna me to suffer..

Sitting alone at the corner..

As if I'm having any virus or what..

Never talk..

Wanted to sit with darling at the front..

But was left with one sit in front and one sit at the back..

It seems like being FORCE to being alone..

Happy that I have a boyfriend and take the chance to push me aside???

Is that so???

Hope I'm in the wrong conjecture..

Always so quiet in the lab..

ALWAYS..

From the beginning I don't sit THERE at all..

I'm not sitting at the back from the START..

Sitting in the middle of them makes them feel uneasy izzit???

Even EC too..

I was being left alone..

And I was not alone from the START TOO..

So what I have a boyfriend..

Must I stick with him everyday???

Who do you guys think I am???

I am a human being with feelings too..

I'm going collapsed soon..

I SWEAR..

I'm just holding on to my tears RIGHT now..

Oh ya..

You guys always thinks that I'm a "HARDCORE" girl isn't it???

Prove you wrong man..

Don't judge a person just because of some other people judgement and comments..

Childish and noobish acts..

LOVEmeTWICE 1:24 PM

I hardly slept last night..

Less than 3 hours.. >.<

Projects and assignments are stacking up fast..

I'm dying arhz~~~~~

I'm getting lazier day by day..

Not interested in study..

Not interested in games..

EVEN MY MAPLE!!! T.T

I miss my ex-guild members!!!

MY DOL~~

Gary DI~~~

Getting so tired in life..

I'm always thinking this way.. XD

Anyway..

I've recover from my sickness..

FINALLY isn't it..

Hahaha..

Went to Wee Neng house today to do the OS Module..

In the end I went there to slack..

Eat.. Talk.. Sleep is what I do there just now.. XD

I get to ask Wee Neng to scan the neoprint inside the computer..

Hope to get it AS SOON AS POSSIBLE..

Can't wait to put it in my friendster..

And post it in my blog!!!

Hahaha!!!

Anyway.. .. .. ..

laLaLA~~~ =X

LOVEmeTWICE 11:35 PM

Seriously..

I know what I need for now..

A SCANNER OKIE..

I need to scan all my neoprint inside my laptop..

And post it in my blog..

So that people can see it more clearly!!! =X

Anyway..

Today went out with darling..

Guess what we do..

Same old thingy..

Watch movie at Cineleisure..

Take neoprints at Heeren..

Go arcade at Dobby Ghaut..

AGAIN!!!

Today is our 2nd month today..

I think I should of think of something special to do next month..

Any suggestions???

Tag me please SOMEONE..

WHERE'S MY GIFT ANYWAY??? XD

You will have yours SOON (HOPE SO)..

Lalala~~~

Here's a blurry image of our neoprint:



Seriously.. I really need one SCANNER isn't it? Zzz..

AND ALSO..

MY BOYFRIEND HAS A KIDDY LOOK..

Looks more like my brother than a boyfriend..

SIGH~*

LOVEmeTWICE 11:59 PM

I'm so lucky this week..

Sick and still sick..

Cough like hell..

And my "BIG AUNT" come visit me today!!!

Tomorrow is me and darling 2 months together..

Intend to go out..

WHY!? WHY!? WHY!? T.T

If my sickness still not having any good progress..

Tomorrow will be at home the whole day..

Kinda sad isn't it.. T.T

I WANT TO RECOVER PLEASE!!!

I want my neoprints taken with darling..

Sobx..

Blogging in pain now..

Cause my back ACHE too..

Become old woman already..

So fast.. .. .. T.T



Anyway..

Happy 19th Birthday Zhi Xuan on 6th of May!!! =D

LOVEmeTWICE 11:05 PM

I'm still sick..

Still so sick..

Serious cough and flu..

Sigh..

Not in the mood now..

No one to console me..

No one to talk to..

Everyone is busy..


Human beings..

Difficult to understand them..


*cough*cough*

LOVEmeTWICE 11:52 PM

Just woke up from my "nap"..

Realised my back ache..

My brother massaged for me..

But I need a good massage..

Brother hand not good..

Flu and sore throat..

Just force myself to eat those PANADOL..

Sigh..

So tired..

And somehow..

I'm kinda sad whenever I go school now..

Shouldn't think this way..

Trying.. .. ..

LOVEmeTWICE 10:41 PM

Today went to eat Dim Sum with family and darling..

Had mention it yesterday though.. XD

Me and darling reached Marina and met them(The Couples) at 2.30pm..

Late.. >.<

Kite flying until 5pm..

I didn't manage to have my kite fly up to the sky..

And I had my skin "tanned"..

When you all see me..

U all sure say no difference..

But when I compared my colour from those that is "tanned" and those white skin..

Got difference!!! T.T

And my face turns red too..

For hours and it's still red..

People might mistaken me putting blushes.. >.<

After that we went our own ways..

Me and darling went Woodlands..

Ate Long John Silver..

After that go pasar malam..

Main point is to go Fun Fair..

Wait for our food to digest..

We have our one and only game played at about 8.10pm..

Sadded OKIE..

And I found out that I'm really old..

Find it quite 辛苦 playing those "vigorous" game..

Very dizzy.. But I still wanted to play actually..

Actually was playing with sister(her boyfriends) and her friends..

But they went to watch Retribution(movie) first before meeting me..

In the end I went home at about 9.10pm..

What a SAD day..

P.S. Must emphasis on the SAD.. =X

LOVEmeTWICE 10:28 PM

Mum's birthday today.. =)

She's getting so old as years when passed..

I hope time will stop now.. >.<

Kidding anyway.. XD

Well.. Tomorrow(Still 1ST of MAY) will be eating Dim Sum at Toa Payoh..

Celebrate my mum's birthday..

With my family of cause..

And darling will be tagging along too.. XD

FREE FOOD FOR HIM!!! LOLX.. Kidding..

Tomorrow will be meeting Alvin and "Gang" at 2pm for Kite Flying!!!

Hurhur~~~ Been waiting long.. =D

And I hope to go FunFair tomorrow OKIE.. I DON'T CARE!!! =X

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A Quote for today:

Underneath the beauty lies a venomous heart.

Somehow I think it's TRUE.

So evil EviL EVIL!!!

LOVEmeTWICE 12:51 AM

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